Life BEFORE Death
I experienced an anaphylactic reaction to some medication last week. Basically, the medication caused my body to go into shock where I had no blood pressure, weak pulse and couldn't breath well. It is all kind of a blur except that I remember it happened very quickly, and I remember the palpable tension in the room. I could hear, but because I didn't have enough blood to my brain, I wasn't able to see anything but black. I had excruciating pain to my abdomen from the lack of good circulation. I was very flushed and sweating alot. Thankfully, I was at my physician's office, and they were quick to respond.
I could hear their voices, and at times I could even respond to them, but I felt quite certain that if something didn't happen quickly, I was going to die. I have never had a feeling like this is my life. It wasn't a huge panic type experience. It was more of a 'knowing.' I was taken by surprise! I try to live each day as if it could be my last, but I truly never expected last Wednesday to be my last day. It had been like any other ordinary day. I was tired from working long hours in the clinic, and I yearned to have a real day off to just relax. Even so, I hurried about to get my errands done all the while promising myself that 'some day' soon I would enjoy a relaxing day with friends.
This day, though, I didn't have lunch with friends; I didn't laugh with people I love; I didn't show my husband the love I felt for him.
No, I didn't do that. I think sometimes God gives us little nudges toward change. This day he gave me a big kick in the pants! The time to enjoy life is now.
These are the days!
I experienced an anaphylactic reaction to some medication last week. Basically, the medication caused my body to go into shock where I had no blood pressure, weak pulse and couldn't breath well. It is all kind of a blur except that I remember it happened very quickly, and I remember the palpable tension in the room. I could hear, but because I didn't have enough blood to my brain, I wasn't able to see anything but black. I had excruciating pain to my abdomen from the lack of good circulation. I was very flushed and sweating alot. Thankfully, I was at my physician's office, and they were quick to respond.
I could hear their voices, and at times I could even respond to them, but I felt quite certain that if something didn't happen quickly, I was going to die. I have never had a feeling like this is my life. It wasn't a huge panic type experience. It was more of a 'knowing.' I was taken by surprise! I try to live each day as if it could be my last, but I truly never expected last Wednesday to be my last day. It had been like any other ordinary day. I was tired from working long hours in the clinic, and I yearned to have a real day off to just relax. Even so, I hurried about to get my errands done all the while promising myself that 'some day' soon I would enjoy a relaxing day with friends.
This day, though, I didn't have lunch with friends; I didn't laugh with people I love; I didn't show my husband the love I felt for him.
No, I didn't do that. I think sometimes God gives us little nudges toward change. This day he gave me a big kick in the pants! The time to enjoy life is now.
These are the days!
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